Rebecca Hb. (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
beckyh2112) wrote2005-11-14 12:33 pm
beckyh2112) wrote2005-11-14 12:33 pm
Gah...
I plodded through all of my classes last week, even though there were a few days when I was closer to breaking down from depression than anything else. I wake up today, feel mentally and physically just peachy (except for my period, but I'll get through that), and yet I can't bring myself to go to any of my classes. I could barely bring myself to get lunch.
Fortunately, I can castigate myself to work on the paper I have to write, so I'm accomplishing something...
I just wish I knew what was wrong with me. I can handle "I don't wanna", I can handle grey malaise, I can handle it when vicious hacking fits make my boss want to send me home... But this is just- I cannot make myself leave my dorm for anything other than food.
Fortunately, I can castigate myself to work on the paper I have to write, so I'm accomplishing something...
I just wish I knew what was wrong with me. I can handle "I don't wanna", I can handle grey malaise, I can handle it when vicious hacking fits make my boss want to send me home... But this is just- I cannot make myself leave my dorm for anything other than food.