Writing Rambling

[beckyh2112]

I'm not actually home yet, just stealing the computer while everyone else watches a football game.

I think I'm burning out on Transformers smuttery. It's getting harder for me to be really interested in doing much beyond a bit of kissing/teasing then fade to black. I can get away with that for springkink, but there's a Tracks/Sunstreaker fic I owe that's hanging fire because I can't tackle the smut scene. (Then there's the Blitzwing/Catechism one that's all smut, and I just wind up staring at the file blankly whenever I open it.)

Looks like both of my upcoming Silverbolt springkink fics will be late, and I'd appreciate a beta-reader for both of them. One is Motormaster/Silverbolt, one is Silverbolt/Optimus Prime. The MotoBolt one is smutty, and I haven't finished the Bolt/Prime one enough to say if it's smutty also. MotoBolt needs to be checked for sanity (does what is happening make sense? am I blind to how not-sexy/gross/kumquat it is? do I really need all of these scenes?) and characterization (should Silverbolt be behaving that way? should Motormaster?). The Bolt/Prime will probably need the same thing, but again, need to finish it.

I'm going to need a beta-reader or two for the Tracks/Sunstreaker one, as well, but I'll post more details about that when it's actually finished. Charles, I'm probably going to grab you for this just to check on the battle scene.

Kep, I need to drag you aside to talk Age of Apocalypse Sabretooth and Wild Child when I get back to decent internet speeds.

Also, any volunteers to hit me if I try to take a prompt for the next springkink round? I really need to just stop for a round or two and concentrate on my own writing instead of stressing myself about both neglecting my own writing for springkink and not getting the springkink stories done on time.

So, no springkink for me next round unless there is a prompt that seems to be custom-tailored for my kinks and proclivities.

Comments

[kyra-neko-rei.livejournal.com]

Hmmm . . . I suspect it would be safer for me to pass on that, then . . . but if you don't get anyone else to beta for it I will . . . consent issues in Transformers fic don't squick me anywhere near as much as it does in anything else.

Thanks for the warning, anyway.

Hah . . . I claimed both of those, too. And I'm not sure I dare post the "bondage - bleed" one . . . I poured too much of me into it, if that makes any sense, and Moto's got a side to him in it that I'm worried about people accepting . . . eh, what the hell, I'll post it when I finish it.

[beckyh2112.livejournal.com]

On the plus side, Motormaster learns the important lesson of 'never attempt to rape a lightning-generator in the middle of a thunderstorm'.

But yeah, I figure that one is going to have a much lowered reader base than other stories I write. Very strong themes of non-consent, though if the series goes as planned, the non-consent morphs to a perceived-inequal-but-actually-equal-and-consensual balance.

I just see Motormaster as the type to go "want, take, have" first.

I think a well-written Motormaster is going to be a rather monstrous person if you get too far inside of his head. He's deeply sadistic to the point of tormenting his own teammates. He does love people, but he doesn't know how to express that through anything other than violence and domination.

So I don't think there's much of anything in what you can write in Motormaster that will bother me.

[kyra-neko-rei.livejournal.com]

Actually, it was more in the opposite direction---I'm wondering if he's too "nice" to be believable. It's hurt-comfort (with bondage and bloodplay and the like), rather than much squicky stuff.

Basically, it starts with an established relationship---sexual but not romantic---between Silver and Moto. Silverbolt gets off hard on the rough stuff, but is ashamed of it, and ashamed of going to Motormaster for it, and falling in love with Motormaster besides, and thinking he's an idiot for doing so, and just all-around not in a healthy state of mind. He's also stressed about a whole lot of stuff, and the BDSM sessions function as stress relief, but he's still guilty and insecure over them; they cause as much trouble as they deal with.

Cue a fight with his other lover, Optimus, in which Silverbolt blows up and tells Optimus every sordid little detail of what he does with Motormaster, and then flies off, hurting terribly, and encounters Motormaster, who fixes things. It's basically a crisis point for Silverbolt, in which Motormaster can finally figure out what Silverbolt needs from their relationship, and provide it in a manner consistant with his nature. (Because Silverbolt was, for his own protection, not trusting Motormaster with what he needed, and equally in his own defense, not acknowledging it himself.)

He does love people, but he doesn't know how to express that

I'm glad you said this, because it helps. I'm still trying to suss out how Motormaster feels about Silverbolt---were he a normal mech, he'd be in love, but he's Motormaster; he's not familiar with the concept of love and has no idea what to do with it, except on his own, somewhat twisted and unhinged, terms.

[beckyh2112.livejournal.com]

You intrigue me.

[kyra-neko-rei.livejournal.com]

Oh goodie! :)

I just have to finish it; there's a couple places where it skips and I'm not quite sure what to put in there.

[beckyh2112.livejournal.com]

My initial response is 'sex', but I don't think that's the right answer.

[kyra-neko-rei.livejournal.com]

It's around the sex---the sex is written. But there's little points that need making and dialogue that needs to segue into other dialogue, et cetera. *doesn't have it up, so can't remember*

But, I have to get up early tomorrow, so I had best get to bed (and fantasize about Moto/Silver until I fall asleep).

[kyra-neko-rei.livejournal.com]

Thanks much for the help.

[beckyh2112.livejournal.com]

... I was helping?

[kyra-neko-rei.livejournal.com]

You have no idea how much. :)